Family Time...

4:12 in the evening. Currently at my cousin Amanda's house. Awaiting for our family Christmas party, yes its late, i know. Sorry for no blogs lately. Its Christmas time, so I've been pretty busy. I will update later though. Tell you guys how i spent my Christmas. Going to go get ready now. Bye

Christmas Eve...

Good morning loves; it is 1:25AM right now. I just got home from the RASCAMEES (Rascal & Meccamee) Christmas party. It was pretty chill. Always good seeing those faces, and watching people dance. They cease to amaze me; no lie. Jay was back from Oklahoma, that’s always nice. I felt like a dumbass, btw, because I was super duperly over dress in my opinion. But whatever, we mostly just DANCED the night away. Watching everyone do pieces. I loved it; I loved the environment we were in. Everyone there inspires me, hella corny to say, but it’s the truth. After that, we went to do our white elephant exchange gift. But before we did that, we had surprise trivia about Rascals & Meccamee. It was pretty fun; then everyone broke off and started playing games. Such as DIRTY MINDS GAME, something like that. It was super funny, you should buy the game and play it. Then everyone started leaving and Roxy and I hung out with the few people that were left. We started playing this snaps game, but it was nothing like the regular game. Jay and Ellis made their own hardass version that no one gets. Pretty crazy if you ask me. We left at like 12:20AM, then Chris, his brothers, and Roxy brought me home. They’re so nice and generous. It was super funny cause me and Roxy kept getting them lost. I really want Chris to teach me the Falsetto dance. Well hopefully we have more hangout time with them (Rascamees); they kind of bring out the best in me. Well anyways, on another note, today is Christmas Eve. I get to open my presents, + Oscar comes back today. I wonder where we’re eating at. Ok well, I will most definitely update later.

"Live Simply, Give More, Expect Less"...

Firstly, I’d like to point out that today is the birthday of my buddy Chris; how dandy. Woke up and found many texts’ in my cellular device. Then I got ready and was off to Costco. Talk about free samples; haha. Let me tell you that Australian lamb is not the business, and you should have pumpkin cheesecake for your Christmas dessert. When we got to the cash register, I turn around and see a familiar face. I look at my mom with excitement and say, “Omg, its Chris.” I start to walk over and I’m all like HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Hella of a coincidence. I haven’t seen that boy in 3 months, and then I end up seeing him on his birthday; in Costco. Afterwards, we went to a whole buncha stores, then to the office. While waiting, I made myself some hot cocoa. When we left, we headed to Longs Drugs. I got some new mascara and some Hawaiian chocolate. But the day was not over yet. We ended up going to Norstrom where they had these shoes that I really liked. Didn’t get them though. How gay. But the best part of the day was going to the Cupcakery. I’ve been wanting to go there and get some cupcakes. It’s like a dream world to me. I went in and acted like a kid in a toy store; AMAZED. I picked out “oh-my-ganache”. Let me tell you, it was delicious. Then we went to 2 Fresh and Easys’. Finally we got home and ate dinner. We all watched some CSI episodes, my favorite TV show btw, and now I’m here in my room blogging. Oh geez when we were at Bed Bath and Beyond me and my mom saw this sign and I felt you should know what it said. “Live simply, Give more, Expect less”. I really liked it and I really think I should live by it. Mmmm, tomorrow shall be boring. Just spending it with my mother. Hopefully going shopping. 3 days till Christmas!

Starting Great...

So I really don’t know as to why I am up this late. Oh well. So it is 12:16 AM which technically makes this Saturday but I will be blogging about yesterday, which was Friday. It started off with the previous day when I told my mom I refused to go to school. I explained to her that it was stupid to make us go to school when we didn’t have to go to school on Thursday because of the snow. Plus, what’s the point right? All I would be doing is eating candy and doing Christmas crafts; POINTLESS. So Friday, I got to sleep in, it felt amazing. I woke up around 8 or 9 when Chow called me and said that he would pick me up around 11. He ditched; TSK TSK TSK. So I was getting ready and stuff and I go into my mom’s room, and Oscar (my mom’s boyfriend) says, “Does your mom know you didn’t go to school?” Then I think, hmmm, I wonder if she might get mad. It was just whatever though. I continued to get ready and at about 12 o clock, Chow picked me up and we were on our way to Palo Verde HS to get Roxy. We get there around 12:30 and she comes in with flowers; how cute. We get hungry, + we have an hour to kill. So, we go to Wal-mart and get some food at McDonalds. Chow has to get a haircut so we go to this barber shop near Sierra Vista and leave him there. Roxy and I take his car to pick up his little brother Joey at Bishop Gorman HS, which is like at the other side of the world! Roxy is a very good driver btw. Even though we got honked at about 7 times for no apparent reason. GAY! So we head back to the barber shop and wait a few minutes while Chow gets some finishing touches. It was pretty boring, and didn’t smell too good either aha. Afterwards, we headed off to the south side to pick up JR. It was a very long ride if you ask me. Roxy, Joey, and I attempted to fall asleep. When JR opened the car everyone smelled him. Roxy kept saying, “you smell like shampoo.” Then Chow would say, “no its axe phoenix.” But JR said it was “Axe Essence”. Something like that? So we were off to practice around 3 o’clock. When we got there, we saw Keshia. Haven’t seen that girl in a while. Then said hi to Lani and Joie (love those girls). At practice, we pretty much talked about auditions and stuff. It kind of scares me. The thought of new people coming into the group. But at least they’re private so it’s not like just anyone could audition. Ahaha. Especially those 2 cocky girls, right Roxy? Oh and let me tell you, the audition piece is quite sick and quite hard. Trust me, we tried learning it today. LMAO. That’s pretty much my start of winter break. I loved it, ahah. I’m super excited for the next 2 school free weeks!

All I Want For Christmas...

December; the time for giving, celebrating, being around people you love. People keep asking me, “Rachel, what do you want for Christmas.” To be honest, no amount of money in the world could probably give me what I want for Christmas. December 25th will mark the day. 2 years since I haven’t seen my dad. 2 years without growing up with a father figure. Someone to say you’re one of the most important things in his life. Someone that would be proud of you when you accomplish your dreams. 2 years, my dad hasn’t been there with me. To see me grow up into a young lady. To protect me from the world. So I have to ask myself. “Is there something wrong with me? A flaw that caused you to not stick around?” It’s the happiest time of the year. It really sucks knowing I can’t share it with you, AGAIN. I still hope and prey to see you soon. Words can’t express how much I miss you. I dream about it. The day I’ll see you again. I’d give you a big hug, and cry my eyes out. My mom still has those negative thoughts, but I choose to forget about them. No matter how many mistakes you made, no matter how many times you and my mom argued; that’s the past and that’s between you and her. This is about you and me. I really need you. I miss having you around. I even miss when you would yell at me. It showed you cared; I know that now. So you see, not even materialistic things will do this year. All I want for Christmas is you daddy; YOU. And you probably won’t ever know. <3